Broke.

I really am broke. My money's all gone. Damnit. =))

It's okay. I haz a huge bar of Choco Mucho! Yay me. XD

Hrm. Well, during CAT today I kind of.. well, I didn't faint, thank god. But I did get dizzy. Srsly. And I had to sit down for a while. I didn't even make it to the quiz or the flag retreat. Noooo I am weak. ): Wahaha. Lois even had to give me a direct order to eat lunch every time there was a CAT. Damnit. And aside from that.. really.. I have to go eat. I have to be.. ugh.. healthy.

Oh well. I understood the capacitors thaaang in Physics. Haha. I'm so proud of myself! XD Plus our demo in Phys4 was good. So hurrah.

I don't know whether or not there's a rev t'morrow at school. WTF man. O_O SOMEONE HEEEELP WAHAHAHA.

I have one more poem to go before I hit 200.. ickall, pray. =))))

This title was supposed to be better.

But I cannot think of a better one. ):

Also, I'd planned a really good blog entry.. but.. I can't remember. GODDAMN. =)))) This is so horribly unfair.

Anyway. I am back in Manila. Until tomorrow, at least. Picking up the Mindstorms kit, plus my ACET forms, plus slippers, cookies, Von Dutch clothes, and an extra something that will make someone go O_O

Haha. OKAY.

This shall be a character-appreciation blog! (:

Narcissa Malfoy.

She married the wrong sort of man, but I don't think you can deny that her love for her boy is so amazing. The first thing she asked Harry was where he was, if he was alive. She risked her life for that. If she'd been found out, well. We all know Voldy. I mean, really. That was her first priority. She went up against Bellatrix, just to make sure he was alright. She made Snape take the Unbreakable Vow, so Draco wouldn't come to harm. And I give a round of applause to the directors and screenwriters, who pulled off the Malfoy family's walkout so flawlessly. It was so beautiful. Not caring that a war was going to be waged behind her, she just took her son's hand and never looked back. I just think people should recognize her more. I love how she loves him.

Draco Malfoy.

Well, he's got his fangirls, but how many people only began appreciating him from the fifth book onwards? And yes, Tumblr posts say most of what I want to, but hey. Requotes! Haha. Draco really was the first person to try and make friends with Harry. And he didn't even know it was Potter. He was being genuinely nice. And when he offered Harry his hand, he was just looking out for a fellow kid. I honestly think if Harry had let himself be put in Slytherin, they'd have been good friends, at least. Draco was a boy who made all the wrong choices, to put it in someone's very eloquent words. He fell under the curse of Slytherin house, mainly that they were detested for being thought to being detesting. Honestly. If you put someone in a bad light and hate them completely and let their horrible reputation precede them, well of course they'd have no choice but to end up the way you see them. Sort of like the self-fulfilling prophecy. Someone tells you you'll go to the park today.. and you go to the park thinking that, well, it was bound to happen anyway. Idiot.

Severus Snape.

Honestly, if he didn't look the way he did, I would love him to bits. By the way, has anyone noticed that the kid Snape from 7.2 looks kind of like Gerard Way? O_O I swear to god. =))))

Anyway. Well. This is unrequited love from the very beginning. It must have been hell to see Harry every day, seeing James in that disrespectful, defiant face, but Lily in those brave eyes. I guess he didn't know how to feel about Harry, since he was James' son.. but also Lily. How painful must it have been, to have the one person you love die for the son of someone you hated so dearly. That scene where he was holding her, I cried. Both times. AAGH. He really was the bravest man Harry ever knew. Not just for facing death fearlessly, with his one concern to keep Lily's son safe, but for putting up with all sorts of hell just for that love. Because he loved her that much. He's .. unconditional, unrequited love. He must have been so difficult to want him, but he.. agh. I'm getting all senti. OTL I can't go on. I just can't. Every time I try to say something I tear up. This is just so painful. Nevermind.

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I have the Mindstorms kit in my hands. How bitterly ironic that I paid for more than half, and I'll never get to use it. Urgh. D:

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I'm going to re-read Good Omens now. I don't have anything left to say. I give up. This was supposed to be an epically long blog entry, but.. well.

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I saw something a while ago. I didn't like what I saw, much. Bothersome~

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We're going swimming later. :D

Ahurr.

Okay I'm typing this out using Opera 'cause I've sort of given up on Google Chrome lately. Waahaha. Oh well. 

Anyway. I don't know what to say. I've forgotten what I typed out before [this is the third time I've tried to upload this post] and I'm too lazy to remember, so I'll just swear. AGH FUCK. TT_TT

I'm going back to Manila on July 22nd. OHMYGOSH MOM AND DAD HAPPY 17TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!! For sixteen and a half of those years I have made your lives insane. Aaah. XD

My grades are climbing. And I am so fucking proud of myself. Haha. Hey, it's not that easy. I'm just.. aah. This is a good thing! Study study study. XD

I'm being more guarded with my words and my actions now, though. I've learned that there are repercussions for what I do, and I don't like dealing with those repercussions. Thus, no doing. Haha.

I shall have my hair dyed black when I go home to Manila. I'll need it to pull off Eris. Plus a trim on my bangs, I think. XD GAH I need a pretty black dress! And theme music, and I need to write my script. UWAH.

I'm trying to return to deviantArt, but.. it's too much trouble. T_T

OHMYGOD MARRY YOUR DAUGHTER IS PLAYING ON THE RADIO HOLY SHIT OHMYGOD I AM FUCKING SWOONING. O________O

I swear. This is like one of the sweetest songs in the ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD. AAAAH. 

Whoever marries my daughter will have to sing this song to me and her dad first. :P Whoever marries me.. well. Hahaha. I don't know about that. But I'm fucking sure, THIS SONG IS SOOOOOO. AAAAH. XD *swoon*

I'm gonna marry your princess, and make her my queen. :")

Okay, total insanity. Haha. I'm alright now. XD

Oh, and before I forget... congrats, Lil. :P You deserve it. And no.. you know what I'm.. not. Hahaha. Good on ya, mate! XD

The kind of flawless I wish I could be. Taylor Swift, stop taking over my life. O_O Whaaa.

I think that's about it. Good bye~

Ahurr.

I'm typing from Opera, ZOMG. Hahaha. I decided to quit Google Chrome, for now at least. Yay me! XD

I'm trying to be really.. guarded right now. I don't know why. I guess I've noticed that my actions have repercussions, and I don't like dealing with the repercussions, thus.. no actions.

On the upside. Guess who's getting good grades now!! Awoo. Hahaha. So awesome. I feel so cool. And Physics is being good to me. 3 AND 4. Huzzah. I must studyyyyy. :>

I'd like to say one thing: Congrats, Lil. :"> Haha. Good on ya, mate. 

Anyway! I'll be going back to Manila on the 22nd. OHMYGOSH MOMMY AND DADDY HAPPY SEVENTEENTH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. <3 For sixteen of those years I have made your lives totally insane. I love you two!!

I'm getting my hair dyed black again. I need to pull off Eris, plus sir Ed keeps telling me that my hair color ain't accepted. Psh. I'll always find a way around the rules. :P

Smart is being a douche. What the fuck. O_O

I'm trying to return to deviantArt, but it's so damn difficult. URGH. o-o

Oh well. I think that's all. Goodbye.

Weekend!!

Over the rainbow and into the sky,

where all the love songs are written

and dreams never die.

How amazing are you, that a random conversation between us would actually make me write a couplet. Aaaagh. Hahaha.

By the way, I wrote you a much, much longer poem. XD

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Anyway! This weekend was FUN FUN FUN FUN. Hahahahaha.

My parents came over. And OHMYGOSH THE PARENT DATE HOLY CRAP.

There was an insane conversation between me and my parents about some food. And they made fun of me the entire night. Daisy and tita were so cool. So epically cool. Meeting your future in-laws isn't as bad as everybody says it is! Now only his dad to go. Whew. I really, really hope I survive that one. O_O

I'm a liar, nonetheless

And when you do your very worst,

oh, it feels the best. <3

So addicted to The Poison by All American Rejects. I dunno. It sounds... hnnng. WAAH. Hahaha.

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I don't know what to say in this blog. I want to write a lot, but.. nothing's coming to mind. Hrm.

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I'm not the type to run after people. I'm not the type to apologize. I'm not the type to acknowledge the fact that there's any problem at all. So obviously, when bad things happen, you can't really count on me to make things right. I'm sorry, it's just like that.

Maybe it's just force of habit. I've had to let go of so much, by now it's all I know how to do. So too bad for you if you decide to drop out of my life. You're not gonna have an easy time getting back in.

Or maybe.. maybe I'm just scared. Of the consequences. There is so much trouble, all the time. I can never seem to get a moment's peace. I never get things quite right. Whenever I make a choice, things pop up that convince me I screwed up, again. Agh. Why am I so depressive.

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I followed new blogs on Tumblr a while ago. So awesome!! Haha. I still stand by my decision for the casting of the Hunger Games. Pada FTW.

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ARNHAYD Y U LEAVE US. ): I WILL MISS YOU FOREVER. OHMYGOSH. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. UWAH.

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I have a weakness for pretty shoes. Ohmygod. And I'm really critical of shoes, too. I mean srsly.

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I wanted to hold you,

I wanted to make your everything alright.

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I can't stand sad people. Sorry, I just hate it. So much. I don't like seeing people upset for any reason. It makes me want to punch them. Especially if they take it out on me, or they make it obvious that it's my fault. I mean, c'mon. I wouldn't have hurt you if you weren't close enough to hurt me. So get the fuck over it, man. God. What the hell is wrong with you? Stop depressing me. I've got enough to deal with. STOP MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO CARE WHEN I DON'T. --Okay I'm sorry. This isn't about anyone in particular. At least not right now. This is what happened a long time ago. It's what happens sometimes, too. But not presently. Right now I'm fine~

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I need a good, lengthy conversation spanning a huge, random amount of topics. I am so starved for a good book, for a good insight, for a good.. anything. I mean seriously. Everything in my life is just so mediocre and stupid and irritating right now. It's so.. fucked up. There is very little that is interesting at all. Somebody, entertain me. Somebody, tell me things I don't know. Somebody, occupy my time and give something worthwhile to talk about. SERIOUSLY. I am going to fucking die of boredom here. I'm rotting already. I'm desperate for whimsical things. I'm desperate for.. I don't know. I just really, really, really want something interesting. I AM SO DRAB. There is nearly nothing that is exciting going on. Homework, school, shit like that. GOD. This is the worst kind of wasted there is. Ennui.

OTL

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You got a hollowpoint smile.

First of all. A very happy birthday (belated) to Daisy. I love you, hon. :) I hope you had a good one. *hug* Stay amazing, okay? Or else. Hahaha.

I shall begin with a mini-rant, then go on about yesterday and how FUCKING EPIC it was. Wooh.

I think the casting for Hunger Games is completely off. Honestly, I swear. It's horrible. Really, really horrible. Though I'm pretty sure if the HP series were cast as badly people would murder. I mean, c'mon.

Jennifer Lawrence is blonde and light-skinned. :| Katniss Everdeen has dark hair, olive skin, grey eyes. What is wrong with you people. ARE YOU BLIND? I think, though, if stoic-ness is what they're going after, and overall body construction, they should have taken Kristen Stewart. Yes, I am really saying this.

Josh Hutcherson is NOT blonde. He is also not as good looking as he once was. Yuck, man. Lucas Till would be much, much, much, much, MUCH better as Peeta. HE IS BLONDE. And he looks WAY better than Josh. His are the looks you would think Peeta would have. He's the guy you would like from a glance. JOSH IS NOT. Ohmygod, what.

Jared Padalecki should totally play Gale. For one, the build. Pada is ripped. F'cking ripped. And I mean, ripped. Plus, the hair. Plus, the looks. THE LOOKS. Liam Hemsworth is so... ugh. Basta. He is just no match for Pada, okay? I MEAN C'MON. And he is so not tall enough. DO YOU KNOW HOW TALL JARED PADALECKI IS?! He's over six feet. That is Gale. Liam is not. Jeez. What is up with the casting directors.

Okay, that's enough.

I have to start writing my ACET essay. I want to make it worth it. UWAH. o-o

Well. Now I think it's time for yesterday. Of course I won't spill on everything. That's insane and senseless. But hey, it was good.

I went to the review at school. English first! And my scores were epically low. Well, not really. I mean, I got the highest ones in class, but.. low. For me. I MEAN C'MON. 23/30 and 54/65?! ME?! Getting shitty scores like THAT?! Fuck no. I think I was pretty distracted. Careless, too. It was so stupid. I don't know what happened. Anyway. Then Geom! I barely paid attention. O_O At all. I don't even know what I did. It was just so ...whut.

Bio, but Ma'am went to Photon, and half the people who went to review from Grav moved over to the other room. We're paying for this, man. Haha. THE PHOTON ROOM HAS NO SIGNAL. OHMYGOSH. Plus I have no load. Well, I never did, but IT HAS NO SIGNAL. D:< So yeah.

And then I went to SM with Daisy. Though his friends left before we did, we got there first. BOOYAH. Hahaha. Watched the people inside that MAXX ride thingy, and then he ran. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. It was so... ACK. Cannot breathe from laughter. XD Anyway. Huge amount of bickering over which movie to watch, while we bought Transformers 3 tickets for.. what did he call em. The Power Rangers! Haha.

And then they arrived. And then there was a ruckus because.. ahem. HAHAHA. Gosh. You cruel, terrible people. :P And then, well. Daisy and I decided to just watch TFs3 with the guys (plus Nessie, who tagged along) and then deviate from the group after. XD

We sat in the lower portion! Right behind the Power Rangers. Awesome. Haha. Though the movie was... well.. kind of.. hrm. Disappointing. There were funny parts, epic parts, cool parts, sweet parts, but.. ehh. First of all, the girl. She's hot, yes. I mean, really. O_O But her mouth is kind of.. like.. wtf. You know Monsters, Inc? After Mike stuck Randall's henchman in the Scream thingy? What his mouth looked like? Yeah, her mouth is a little like that.

Wait lang. ORLANDO BLOOM SHOULD TOTALLY BE CINNA. OHMYGOD WTF PLEASE. O_O

Anyway.

Shia's the same as ever. Josh Duhamel is still awesome. Epps, forgot his real name, but still freaking cool. Hahaha. Sam's parents are crazy. XD I will so humiliate my kid like that.

"It kinda reminds me of Bumblebee.. if Bumblebee was a piece of shit." HAHAHAHA. You are so awesome. XD

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After that, well. We went and watched First Class, 'cause he hadn't watched it yet. And yes, it then became my third time watching it. I EVEN HAVE IT IN MY LAPTOP. I downloaded it back then 'cause I thought he wouldn't be able to watch it anymore. I.. think he still needs it. Hahahahahahaha. Anywaaay.

We went to the place. The thingy place. The place with the iced tea and the people. Yeah, that place. XD Then I changed into the dress! Yay me! Haha. The Power Rangers caught up with us, then we all went to KFC because I was craving fries.

Intermission. This is why I love you, dude. You'd make people go out of their way just to let me fulfill my whims. You're the best. (:

So after an eternity of lining up and bickering amongst us about what to order and teasing Daisy endlessly, we got to the counter! Also thank you to Miko who paid for.. I dunno, but he paid for something. Allan, too. Haha. Sadly, I didn't get to keep the change, because they are not as forgiving as Daisy. ): Uwah. Oh well.

So they lined up for a cab and we went to meet my maid at Club 21. IMAGINE THAT. And she was the one who suggested it pa, ah. Hahaha. How flippin' retarded. O_O

When we finally reached Rockbox we saw William in Room 1, then I think.. Miko came in? I dunno. I am sucky at playing guitar, so they suggested bass for me. AND I DID NOT KNOW THAT THERE WAS ANOTHER SET OF KEYS TO PRESS FOR TINY FINGERS WHAT THE FUCK. :| I lived through like four songs before I made that astonishing discovery. :| Goddamn.

Thank goodness there was a No Fail mode. HAHA. X3

We were forever switching between Rooms 1 and 3. At least, he and I were. And there was a tiny hassle over people, but.. hrm. It was resolved! Hooyay.

The Bar, Ice, and a sip of Red Horse. Also, iced tea, but that tasted like nothing. I don't know why people like drinking beer. It tastes horrible and leaves a strong scent. I mean, c'mon! Yuuuck. But oh well. Maybe I'm just used to other kinds of drinks. (>_<) I should bring you guys some Nordic Ice. Or or or! I could find a way to mix you up some Toblerone. ANYWAY. Haha.

People were being woozy left right and center. Puppy was blue. O: It's okay. We handled it. I guess. He disappeared every time I looked away for like, ten seconds. URGH. O_O But oh well. Couldn't be blamed. (:

It was still drizzling when I got home, but well. It was a flippin' awesome day! I guess it made up for my birthday, too. HAHA. I'm such a retard. But oh well.

Gravity don't mean too much to me.

Is this our destiny?

This world is after me, after you.

Run away, like it was yesterday

when we could run away.

If we could run away, run away from here.