Shuffle along, now.

Okay, so I haven't talked to my mom in more than a week. Almost two, actually. I wonder who's going to cave first. I do hope it won't be me. (>_<)

It appears my class (at least, according to Minnie) wants me to be Miss America. >_> I don't want to be, actually. I really don't. I don't feel up to answering stupid questions or dressing up in red, white and blue. Honestly. I just want to get this weekend over with. I really don't feel like I can do this anymore.

That goes for just about everything, too. (Shush.)

I feel so exhausted when I get home every day. Classes have lost what was barely even letting them pass off as interesting, at least for me. Talking to people has lost, not all, but.. much of its luster. 

Maybe I'm becoming a recluse once again? Ha. I doubt it. As long as my current state of affairs holds fast, I will not return too easily to how I once was. It's just not going to happen. Not soon, at least. :/

On the upside. I'm almost done with NEXT, by Michael Crichton. Very... insightful. It really makes you think. I don't want to go into the details (I'll leave you to go check it out on your own. Haha) but let's just say... Humans can be SO infuriating. 

Also. I don't understand why people draw SUCH a bloody line between Science and Religion. (I'm going to take the rest of this in the context of Christianity, since that's what's on all my official papers, and I'm not too familiar with many other religions.)

God made everything on this Earth, am I right? God made everything in this universe. I have no problem with that. God made the people, the trees, everything. You could argue that He didn't make "technology" (in the very public, washed-out sense of the word) e.g. cellphones, laptops, iPads, forks, plastic bags, bridges... it goes on. But He pretty damn well gave us more than enough to make them. They've all been made, one way or another, no matter how indirectly, from what's around us; Nature. And who made Nature? God.

I'm not trying to sound like a preacher. I'm just.. telling you what I think. If you don't want to read on, there's a red button on the upper corner of this page. Click it. 

Moving on. *ahem* God also gave us free will. That's been very well established by many, many people. You can do what you want, but everything you do has a consequence. It's not just some random thing some old men spouted off to get people to do the "right" thing, it's a Law. Go read up on some Newton. (to any classmates. BLEH. Haha)

Atheists say this isn't right, because God supposedly wants us to do good all the time, and if we don't do good, don't repent, and don't worship Him, we shall go to Hell. Well, that seems plausible enough. He's not stopping you from doing whatever you want. He may want you to do something else, but He can't MAKE you do that. That's the point of free will. Do it, but remember there are consequences.

People also get worked up about ethics. Well, yes. There are many different types of people in this world, thus of course there would be many different opinions of what constitutes good ethics and moral conduct. Good form, as Peter Pan would've said it. 

Well, I'm not one to judge. I basically live by reciprocation: Leave me alone and I'll do the same, be nice to me and I'll do the same, fuck me up and I will resent you for life and badmouth you to whomever I can. You can say the last one is pretty bitchy, but hey. You started it.

About abortion (though I am preparing a much better blog on this): I don't mind, much. People try and get you with the "perspective argument":

"How would you feel if you were aborted?" -- I don't think fetuses have fully developed their nervous system yet Also, if I WERE aborted, I wouldn't be here. I would never have known what it was like to live; I would never have had the capacity TO know, at all. In short: How would I feel? I wouldn't; both physically and"emotionally."

"How would you feel if you were pregnant and had to abort?" -- The fact is, I would never have sex before marriage without protection. It's just stupid, since society today decrees it's.. irresponsible. Aside from that, there would always be a morning-after pill. Barring that, if it every really DID happen, then... I would abort, since you just said I HAD to. I've got no other choice, right? 

"How would you feel if your friend had to abort her child?" -- If she needs me to hold her hand through it all, I will. She's my friend after all. That's what I'm there for. I won't lecture her, except to say if she doesn't want to do this again, suggest she be better protected. 

"How would you feel if you were asked to abort someone's baby?" -- Correction: fetus. It's a fetus til it leaves the womb. Also, I have zero knowledge of what abortionists do. I couldn't do it, really. Sorry.

On stem cell research. Nearly the same argument as on abortion, really. I think that's pretty much all I've got to say on it. 

People say looking into the structure of things is Satanic, against God, blasphemy, blah blah blah. I don't believe that. We just want to know what makes us tick. We will always have that incessant need to KNOW. Without it, the human race would have died out eons ago, really. Ho hum. 

People cross breeding different species? Well. That's what we had to do to survive, you know. Less artificially, though. Haha.

I think that's all I can manage tonight; curfew has come upon me. Whoops. Haha

G'night then. :D

~the Raspberry Scribbler.