Paper faces on parade~

Meh. I don't feel like being nice. Today sucks.

Tomorrow will suck, too. For one reason alone. But.. meh. I'll live with it.

I actually don't give a damn about most other people. If they judge me, they judge me, and I resent them for it. If they don't, I won't. Jeez.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. --Dr. Seuss! :D

Also, apparently his name is German, and pronounced "Soice." Cool. Wikipedia is your friend! Haha.

Anyway. Back to depression? I think so.

The rain won't even calm me down today, but fuck that. I'm so.. sick of this. I hate how my mood can change. I hate how everything is so inconsistent, how it can't be all good so I love it or all bad so I hate it. Damn.

Hm. Off the top of my head, three things I want right now.

3. Escape. You will never know how badly I need (yes, NEED) this because you will never understand. I need to know what it feels like to be more than just half of a whole. I need to know how to feel loved, for once. Loved, completely. Unconditionally. I need it to be tangible.

2. Comfort. It's been so long since I last had this, that I honestly don't remember what it feels like. I don't think I'll ever remember, as long as I keep living like this. I want, for once, to be at ease again. Without having to look out for more than myself. I want to learn to care for MYSELF for once. Because I know you can't do it. And I don't want to force you anymore.

1. Release. I need to blow off some steam. Mostly in the form of ranting to my best friend. Or even just talking to her. Why? Because she never judges me. I can act retarded or bitchy and it's gonna be okay. I never had that with you. But that's alright. I don't think I'll ever need to.

*sigh* This became less of a rant and more of a parinig, but hey. I get to do what I get to do, right?

In the immortal words of one of my most awesome friends:

Ang loser mo, pare.