I guess I didn't properly fall the first time~

I don't mind spending everyday, out on your corner in the pouring rain~

Being honest isn't actually part of my personality. It not even part of my daily life. I mean, really. There are a select few who I don't lie to most of the time. Those people are lucky. I mean, really lucky.

I remember years ago, someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love~

Anyway. I guess I should re-begin on a lighter note? Haha.

I got a haircut. :D Also, I'm getting a premium membership for my deviantART! *happy dance* Woohoo.

I've gotten addicted to biking recently, too. I mean, I always used to, and then I stopped, and now I really like it. Seriously. o-o

One minute it's love, and suddenly it's like a battlefield~

My amazing amazing amazing AMAZING cousins came over for the Christmas break. :D I'm taller than Nikole, BAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH. Take that, Medusa!! XD

Kaela was cool. Thank you, for those awesome convo's about how boys are so insane and stupid.

"I love how boys always go after the Hurtado girls." HAHAHA. You're awesome, Kaela.

Nikole is fantastically RETARDED. You know she took over Kaela's convo with Pat Smith?

Pat: (something something) I almost died the other day.

Nikole, pretending to be Kaela: That's awesome! What happened?

Pat: Awesome?!

HAHAHA. Hilarious. Epically evil, but freaking HILARIOUS. Oh, I love you, bitch. :x

....

"The Australian accent is such a turn-on!" I'm sorry, I couldn't resist. OH GOD. Hahaha. Thank you Kaela, for sharing that. OH GOD. Hahahahahahahaaha.

Shoulda known you was trouble from the first kiss~

Anyway. I don't know what I wanna say now. >_> Haha. Today was, well. Erm. Sort of. Uh. HAHA. I don't know what to say, really. I don't know about today. 'Cause, um. Haha. GAH. WAAAAH.

But I do know yesterday and last night were awesome. Cousin sleepovers are THE BEST. :>

Sofia threw a piece of Roca at me. FROM THE HALL. It hit my side. With a SOUND. -__- Damn, that hurt. WTF.

Watching Gilmore Girls was awesome. X3 And that bed, oh god that bed. So comfortable! I mean, seriously. We all agreed: We could live on that bed FOREVER. It was that amazing. o-o

I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven~

Tuesday was absolutely fabulous. Went to Shangri-La. I think all I can say is.. well. Hm. Haha. I don't think I can say anything, much. X3 But my verdict remains. Amazing. Splendiferous! Phantasmagorically fantabulous. Wah.

I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings. But you came along, and you changed everything~

"I do love you. Of course I do. Thing is. I might, I just might, be falling in love with you, too. And I don't know how we'll figure that one out."

I refuse to reveal where in hell I picked up that quote. It means something to someone, yeah. (EHERMM DENISE LOVES jafhaodfqgbwribvbroi)

~

Ebenezer?

Bah, humbug. And all that jazz. Haha.

Okay, I don't want to depress you guys. I mean, it's Christmas Eve! X3

So all I'm gonna say is.. here's a big shoutout, to all the people I fucking love so much. I miss you guys. I need you. And without you, I would have fallen apart a hell of a long time ago. :)

In absolutely no particular order...

My best friend. We've been awesome for over six years. I swear to god, one day we'll make an LBP level so epic we'll get a ten-star rating. O_O (By the way. I can put em on and take em off within ten minutes. Wooh. Haha)

My Bambi. I know we rarely ever get along.. but the times we do, we're great. You know that, right? And I abuse you, and you abuse me, and we're so crazy and insane and out of control, but hey. Spice of life, right? I love you, idiot. And when I get back, I'm kicking your ass.

My turtle. Thank you, so so SO much for believing in me. Especially right now, when I really do need it. God, you're amazing. You know that? You seriously are. I don't think there's anyone else in this world who thinks of me like that. Gosh.

My PC. (I'll leave you to figure this out) I almost never win, I know, and I have this constant urge to negate whatever you say or do. But behind all that.. I do care. And.. thanks, you know, for sticking by me. For telling me .. all that stuff. :D

My Garfield. You will NEVER make the connection, but yeah. Haha. You know that you keep me down to earth, when nobody else can? And you're one of the few who will actually dare to tell me that I screwed up, and how. I love you, for not being afraid.

My honeybee. We were made for each other, bee. And even though we're both klutzy and ditzy at times.. at least we've got each other, right? (Though you never really learned to stop breathing)

My beer. There are probably a bazillion things you haven't told me. And yet for some reason I feel like I can tell you everything. I hope you don't cut when you're bored anymore. Go find someone to hump! (>_<)

My sister. Sofia, you are a complete retard. And I know we've nearly killed each other about a dozen times a month, when we were kids... but we're awesome now. And we're above that. WAY above that. Now, let's go stick some fish food in Miles' new bag.

I think that's about it. No way in hell would I ever have forgotten someone.

You guys are the absolute best. And I'll never let you fucking forget it. (:

~Happy Christmas Eve, everyone.

Alakazaaam.

Gaaah. I can't find my phone, and I can't connect to my Skype. O_O Something is severely wrong with this picture.

I get the strange feeling that maybe mom hid it or took it or something. WTF. I swear to god, I'm going to freak the hell out if that's the case. TT_TT

And now, for some reason, Skype refuses to work. I have internet, yes I do, but Skype is like, dead on me. WTF.

AND I have a cold. I wish I had a really bad cold for one whole day, so I wouldn't keep having mini-colds every other day. Damnit.

Sucky morning. Yessirree.

test.

Spiracles

Well, I have no idea where I came up with that title. I don't really think it's any relation at all to my post. XD Anyway.

First things first. Once I'm back at my apartment, if my beloved MacBook hasn't been fixed yet, I'll most likely be out of commission... forever. o-o

*hikbi*

I know I can find ways around that; there's always borrowing, yeah, but y'know, it's just not the same. :( I hate this.

I haven't even transferred most of my files there. >_<>

Oh well. No use crying over spilled milk. Or broken laptops. ......... *sob*

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Second part of my post! :P

I ran across a meme once, and I actually wrote down my answers for it, but I left the paper back at the apartment. >_> So this is sort of like a new pancake, with batter made from scratch, but not really. Get me? XD

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Intermission: Check this out. Mine takes 540 thousand years to crack. :P Safe enough.

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Back to the meme. XD

Three things you want to say to three people you haven't talked to in a while.

Two pieces of conversation between you and two people you talk usually with.

One thing you want to say to one person you talk to constantly.

(gonna continue this later)

Edit! Here it is. :)

Three:

"I actually think you still haven't noticed I hate you. And.. if that's actually possible, I think that makes me hate you more. And I can't believe you actually got a girl. You had the balls to..to..wow. O_e In any case. I hope you never figure out what happened between us, why I hate you so much. You'll try to fix it, and I seriously do NOT want that. Please don't get the idea in your head that I'll ever forgive you. No way in hell am I ever letting myself be your friend again, you needy little twat."

"I'm actually.. pretty grateful I'm not the one you're after. At least, not anymore. I know we haven't talked in forever, and I'm so so sorry, but at least we still realized the other exists, right? XD And you know? I'm so proud of you. You got your life back on track, even without me there to make sure you lighten up once in a while. :) Stay awesome, yo."

"GAH, we haven't talked in forever. I can't believe it. We have have HAVE to go out sometime before the year ends, otherwise I swear to god I might cry. This is just wrong. I can't believer we've barely talked this year at all. I feel like I'm losing you. o-o"

Two:

"So there was this dude named Pietro who danced with his sandwiches to make them the best."

"You have we're dreams. What do you eat for dinner?"

*laughter*

"I don't have weird dreams! Well, there was this Calvin Klein model in there too, and I think I made out with this french girl named Criselda.... yeah, I have weird dreams."

"Dude, I think your maid puts LSD in your rice..."

*laughter*

Haha. I love you, Lil.

*silence*

"What's that sound?"

"What sound?"

*silence*

"That sound!"

"That's me breathing, Ches."

"Well, stop."

"Stop breathing?"

"Yes! It's annoying!"

"Um, okay."

*silence*

"You're doing it again!"

I love you, Tan. :P

One.

Okay, so.. I'm not gonna put this down in the actual words I think you'd say, mainly 'cause I don't know what the hell you'd say, if you'd ever actually say it, or what I'd want to hear you say, and whether'd or not you actually would. You'd always find a way to.. surprise me, when it came to that. I guess that's what makes you special.

But would it kill you to consider me special for once, too? I mean.. you say it, yeah, but.. it's just so hard to believe that you'd mean it. Yeah, I'm your girl. I know it, you know it, pretty much everyone knows it. But could you please make me feel like it's something worth being? Make me feel like I'm not just another nobody you could get over right away? 'Cause at this point, it seems like that's all I am to you. You make me feel like I'm nothing, do you know that? And it's so unfair, 'cause even though there are times when I seriously hate your guts, you always mean at least SOMEthing to me. You're a specific part of my life. And me, I'm just.. nobody to you. If I had to leave forever.. you wouldn't think twice about saying "Cool. Have fun." You wouldn't get depressed, hell you wouldn't even miss me. You'd just shrug it off like it's one more thing to forget about. Another loose end to tie up. I want to feel like I mean something to you. Please. For once?

(This is depressing, WTF)

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Just something I want to say..

PEOPLE ARE RETARDED. Don't jump to conclusions, jeez. (>_<)

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I want chocolate. :( And I don't want to eat lunch. =))

Gonna go out shopping later, with mom. I hope she doesn't get it into her head that a skirt would look "cute" on me. o-o

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I think that's all. :D

House Meme. (:

GRYFFINDOR:
[x]You’ve never done illegal drugs.
[x]You have a lot of friends
[ ]You get along with everyone
[ ]You haven’t made fun of someone for at least two months
[x]You love soccer
[ ]You love baseball
[x]You’re into writing and art
[x]Favorite music genre is pop rock
[ ]You believe in “innocent until proven guilty” theory
[x]One of your favorite colors is red or gold
[ ]Good grades at school
[ ]One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x]You plan on going to college/university

TOTAL: 7

HUFFLEPUFF:
[ ]You’re content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x]You laugh a lot.
[ ]You like to follow trends.
[x]Politics suck.
[x]You love to swim
[ ]Water polo is awesome
[ ]Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ]Black is morbid & depressing
[ ]You’re an optimist.
[ ]You’re completely straight edged.
[x]You’re very emotional
[ ]Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[x]You don’t believe in going steady at a young age.
[x]You’ve made fun of at least one person this week.

TOTAL: 6

RAVENCLAW:
[x]You’re depressed to a certain extent.
[x]You love to read.
[x]You appreciate theater & arts.
[x]Sports suck.
[ ]You’re shy.
[x]Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
[ ]Hate is completely unneeded.
[ ]Indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x]Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[x]Lying is sometimes okay
[x]Blue is one of your favorite colors.
[ ]Serious is better than funny.

TOTAL: 8

SLYTHERIN:
[x]There’s at least one person you hate.
[ ]Basketball is a good sport.
[x]Football is amazing.
[x]Black is a cool color.
[x]You’ve lied about something serious.
[x]You’re a very deep person.
[x]You have considered suicide.
[x]Very loyal.
[ ]You like metal.
[x]They make school seem more important than it is.
[ ]You’re scared to grow up.
[ ]You’ve done drugs in the past month
[x]Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[x]You have trust issues.
[x]Guilty until proven innocent.

TOTAL: 11

Holy crap! Looks like I'm in Slytherin. XD Funny, I always thought I was just a little bit better than that. :P Gryffindor, actually. Ravenclaw, if I was being smart and snarky. Oh well. Maybe I'm just a little too rebellious now. :)

Cold as You.

Mm. For some reason, Taylor Swift's old songs came back to haunt me on my Nano.

You have a way of coming easily to me;

and when you take, you take the very best of me.

I'll be fine; I just need.. a change of scenery. (:

So I start a fight, 'cause I need to feel something;

and you do what you want, 'cause I'm not what you wanted.

I don't mind anymore, really. I have.. another outlet, I guess. :D

Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day;

just walk away, no use defending words that you would never say.

I want .. a puppy. :D A real one. Somebody please get me a puppy? :)

And now that I'm sitting here, thinking it through,

I've never been anywhere cold as you.

I think I see now why people have their addictions. They really, really need somewhere to escape to. I can relate to that. I don't judge them. It's something that's very.. feasible. Something that can make you think, yeah, I can handle this.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of grey;

and I stood there, loving you, and wished them all away.

Maybe I'll get an addiction of my own? Haha, nah. I wouldn't do that. It's not so much for myself, as for other people. I don't want to hurt you guys. D:

And you come away, with a great little story,

of a mess of a dreamer, with the nerve to adore you.

I think I'd like to try everything though, at least once. Just for the experience. Drugs, alcohol, nicotine, cutting, everything. I really, really want a little bit of.. everything. Huge slice of life. :D

Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day;

just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.

Anyway. Enough of this. Yeah, this is a rant. I'm depressed, is all. I just... eh.

And now that I'm sitting here, thinking it through,

I've never been anywhere cold as you.

*sigh* Books need to be my escape. Trouble is, I'm so eager to be away that every book I have, I devour within a day. It's not fair. Yes, I take the time to read the words and feel the feelings and play the scenes in my head, but.. at the end of the road, it's really just not enough.

You never did give a damn thing, honey,

but I cried, cried for you.

And I know you wouldn't have told nobody

if I died, died for you.

I don't know what's happening. Is it getting worse? Or am I just forgetting how to handle things? I think I've forgotten how to fake my smiles. That's a bad sign. A really bad sign. Fuck this. Honesty is shit.

Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day;

every smile you fake is so condescending, counting all the scars you make.

I thought it'd be good, you know. Honesty, I mean. I thought it'd help me. I really did. And for the longest time, I tried. I really, really tried to be honest. And y'know what? It made things worse. It made everything worse.

And now that I'm sitting here, thinking it through,

I've never been anywhere cold as you.

I'm not going to make that mistake again. Ever.