Honesty.

So I figured, since I had nothing better to do, and I spend a hell of a lot of time slithering lies into all my words, I'd try and tell the truth a little bit, as a sort of dare to myself. (:

1. Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

a. Happy monthsary. I love you. (:
b. When can I sleep over? XD
c. Stay for my birthday, PLEASE. :(
d. I really do hope you'll get better. Not necessarily for me, but for everyone else.
e. You wanna hang out sometime soon? I really miss you.
f. GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE, CUNTFACE.
g. You're gay. If you'd grown some balls in the entire time we'd been friends, maybe I wouldn't hate you so much.
h. For once, can I not be your paper doll? Can I, for once, be human to you?
i. If you're just gonna keep stuff from me, what's the point of our friendship?
j. You know what, sometimes you can be a real bitch. It gets irritating.

2. Nine things about yourself.

a. I'm random. Live with it.
b. Unless you learn to play along when I'm being crazy,
our conversations will remain mundane.
c. I love reading. Don't call me a dork for it.
d. I'm perfectly fine being alone with a book and some good music.
Why do people never understand that?
e. I'm not going to socialize one purpose, unless I have a
damn good reason. Don't try to force me.
f. I go climbing, I want an ATV, I like heights. Don't freak out.
g. Unless I'm being hyper,
or I know you too well,
I don't agree when you compliment me.
h. I spazz out randomly. :D
i. I will not ditch my friends for anything.
I will find reasons to ditch people I hate, though. (:

3. Eight ways to win your heart.

a. Tell me I'm pretty. I'll say I'm not, but hey. A little flattery never hurts.
Give me cute little nicknames. Maybe, just maybe, I'll give you some, too.
b. Read my work, and tell me what you honestly think.
Writing's important to me.
c. Be able to talk to me about anything.
Sex, love, drugs, God, books, TV, homework. Laugh.
d. Stay up late with me, for me, because of me.
I swear this really, really means a lot.
e. Tease me. Haha. Not.. cruelly. Just enough to make me laugh.
And if I start sulking, refer to letter a. KIDDING. XD
f. Tell me everything about you. I love knowing things, but I don't like prying.
g. Hang out with me.
Walking, talking, messing around is always fun.
h. Be spontaneous. Be random. Be awesome, just the way you are.
Most importantly.. don't ever fake anything to get to me. I'll hate you.

4. Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

a. Does he still love me?
b. Damn, I need a new book.
c. Do we have homework?
d. Don't eat. Do NOT eat. Resist. Control yourself.
e. I really, really want some gummi bears right now.
f. I wish I was climbing, or at least flying. Jeez.
g. FUCK YOU, PRUDE. FUCK YOU.

5. Six things you wish you'd never done.

a. Stopped climbing.
b. Forgotten the code to my old phone.
c. Eaten so many fries.
d. Not studied.
e. Messed up.
f. All that shit.

6. Five people who mean a lot.

a. My dummy.
b. My best friend.
c. My sister, Sofia.
d. My parents.
e. Myself. KIDDING. I dunno. (:

7. Four turn offs.

a. Being depressive. I honestly hate that.
b. Ditching me for something stupid.
c. Extensively praising someone else who I am not praising.
d. Comparing me.. to anyone.

8. Three turn ons.

a. Eyes. Seriously, gorgeous eyes are a killer.
b. Pecs. Forgive me for being concerned with the physical, but.. I mean, really.
It's sort of a "whoa" factor. Good pecs means the rest of you would be much the same.
And, I mean, how can you not look at them and not think, "Please hold me."
c. A slight arrogance. You need to know you're worth it.
I don't like having to be the one to make your self esteem from scratch.

9. Two events/actions that describe your life right now.

a. Playing my shuffle on speakers.
Can't change the song, can't pause.
It's only on or off, and the one thing I can adjust is the volume.
b. Reading a book.
Turning back the pages only tells me what I already know,
and maybe tells me some other things I hadn't observed before.
But the only way to know everything is to keep going.

10. One confession.

You know what.
No matter where in hell we end up, I think I'll always love you.
I can hate you, sure, and I won't necessarily be in love with you, but the fact remains.
I can't, won't stop.
And nothing, I repeat nothing, will ever be able to change that.
I just wish you knew.

~

Well, I suppose that's all. :D
Phew, this is hard work. Better go lie some more, make sure I
don't get too honest.
Kidding.

(On a lighter note.
We're finishing Gilmore Girls season two later! :D
Haha. Marathon!)

~the Raspberry Scribbler.