Second--

01. If you were Superman and granted one more extra superpower, what would it be?
- To control every single atom. Haha. The ultimate power. :>

02. Where's your perfect summer getaway?
- Barcelona, Spain! Kidding, I have no idea. Haha. I think I'd be happy anywhere, if I were with the people I adore. :">

03. Are you a big fan of croutons and dressing?
- Croutons, hell yes. :> And the awesome bacon bits, too! Haha. Dressing, no. I think dressing actually defeats the purpose of having a salad in the first place, you know. It's all cream and empty calories. (>_<) I don't even eat salad, anyway. :P 04. Who was the last person who personally baked you a batch of cookies? - ... Nobody. *hikbi* 05. Who's concert were you last been to? - The concert of the band who played at our SMT Camp. That counts, right? Haha. 06. If you could give anyone a big, tight hug right now, who would be the first? - The person I miss the most, and to whom I owe a really really huge hug. That person kinda needs a hug right now too, I should think. :P 07. Are you currently obsessed with something (not someone)? - Something. Erm. I think so. I'm getting into Origami again. Haha. 08. Have you read all of the Percy Jackson books? - Not all. I've read the first, third, and fifth. :D 09. Do you like cheek kisses? - Sure. :> Beso beso. Haha.

10. Which do you prefer; handwritten mail or e-Mail?
- HANDWRITTEN. Sincere. And takes more work.

11. Ever seen a real life fight? As in all that punching, bone breaking, black-eye fights?
- Honey, I've been in them.

12. A zombie apocalypse; what would be your best weapon?
- I'd be all Bill Murray and pretend to be one of em. :P That, or a vial of morphine. Suckers, I'm taking the easy way out.

13. Do you always put your music player on shuffle?
- Yup. Listening to the songs alphabetically is kinda weird. XD

14. Are you a too busy sometimes you consume about 1/2 of your free time?
- YES. And by then it ain't free time no mo'. D:

15. Do you call yourself a 'serious blogger'?
- I should think so. I write about a huge part of my life, here. :D

16. What would your dream gadget as of this very second?
- iPhone 4. WAAAAAH. (>_<)

17. How will you react if you got a 5-layer cake for your birthday?
- OHMYGOD THANK YOU. *pig out* *faint*

18. Do you still drop by Multiply sometimes?
- YES. Haha. Where else would I get this survey? XD

19. Who makes you laugh a lot?
- My friends.. my family.. my self. XD

20. Don't you just hate getting faint spells or anything of that sort?
- I've never really gotten 'em. I've gotten dizzy spells, though. :D

21. What's your favorite teen magazine of all time?
- I don't really read teen magazines, sorry. :D Maybe Candymag, though?

22. Are you a self-conscious person, or just easy-going?
- Depends on my mood, and the people I'm with. :D

23. Do you feel like shouting at the top of your lungs sometimes?
- YES. Sometimes it's all just too much, y'know?

24. Who's your dream man/woman?
- UH. Hahaha.

25. Ever broke an antique you got in serious trouble?
- Naaah. I'm a careful klutz. :P

First--

01. Do you like peppermint swirls?
- I love 'em. :>

02. What's your favorite Ben & Jerry's flavor?
- Strawberry something, I think? I forgot, wtf. O_O

03. Are you the casual type?
- Usually, when it suits my mood. :D

04. What's the first website you visit once you open your browser?
- my deviantART. (:

05. Do you know how to Photoshop?
- Hell no. I'll leave that to my awesome tech-y friends. Haha.

06. Do you see yourself as a creative person?
- Yes, actually. I'm a sucker for arts-and-crafts-y stuff. :P

07. Where do you plan to go once you're old enough to travel on your own?
- EUROPE. :> I want to go Eurotrekking! Italy and Spain and France and Germany and... wah. XD

08. How long do you usually stay in front of the computer?
- Depends how much time I've got. :P

09. When's your birthday?
- January 24! And now that you know, you're obliged to gimme a gift! Hahaha. 'Kidd.

10. Are you excited for something?
- Sure. :>

11. What's your favorite food to have for breakfast?
- Cereal!! Milo or Koko Krunch. :P Or maybe a chocolate croissant? As long as it's chocolatey. Haha.

12. Are you a sunny-day kind of person?
- Nope. I love dark, grey, cloudy, windy, rainy days. <3

13. Do you know how to ride a bike?

Of course! :> Unlike some people I could mention. ;)

14. Do you get misjudged sometimes?
- All the time, actually. (>_>)

15. Can you snap your fingers really loud?
- ... I can barely snap em, actually. TT_TT

16. Ever climbed a tree?
- Yes! Lots. :>

17. Do you like colored pens?
- I ADORE THEM. :>

18. Who's the funniest person you ever met?
- I have no idea. Prob'ly my dad, or my sister. Haha.

19. Nougat or Caramel?
- BOTH BOTH BOTH. YUUUM.

20. How old are you?
- Sixteen years and four weeks, baby. :>

21. What's the color of your favorite shirt?
- Do I even have a favorite shirt? Wtf. XD

22. Do you know how to skip stones?
- All I know is, you need a flat pebble. After that, it's all a blank. XD

23. To end this survey, first thing that comes to your mind when you hear the word "HURRY!"
- "THEY'LL CATCH US WTF GO GO GO!!"

Hey hey hey.

I just remembered that my Multiply still exists! :D

And when I went back to visit it I realized my layout there was actually very pretty, prettier than this one. XD

So I might be making a few changes. Imma go change my tumblr, too. Haha.

Also, expect a flood of surveys from me. My addiction has returned. :D

Belated Valentine's Day Survey. :D

1.Are you single or taken?
Sure, let's go with that. Haha.

2. Chocolate or flowers?
BOTH! :> Haha. Kidding. Erm. I dunno. I've never received romantic chocolate from a boy. Flowers..... I've received seven, I think? Roses, all red. :D

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Next year? I hope so. This year, I did. :P

4. Do you like anyone?
I like everyone! Hahaha. But.. romantically? Sure. :>

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
*gasp* A date? Why, whatever is that thing, my good sir? Hahaha.

Oh, the moon and the streetlamps reflected in the river.. and the city on the other side of the bridge.. and the wind, so cold, and the stars, so far far away.. (>_<)

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?

The people I love. Take note: people. It ain't all about the boys, hon.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?

I never really used to. I think this year was the first one where Valentines wasn't either disappointing or useless, for me.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

Well, if I knew, I don't think he'd have done a very good job of being secret, now would he? Besides. It's not like I'd kill you for "admiring" me, wtf.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?

I don't like mushy letters. (>_<)

Stupid Cupid, you're a real mean guy;

I'd like to clip your wings so you can't fly.

I am in love, and it's a crying shame;

and I know that you're the one to blame~

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?.
WTF no that's weird. XD But I'm sure they give each other presents. :))

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
I made a Valentine's Card for someone.. and I still haven't had the chance to give it. DAMNIT. FUUUDGE. (>_<)

14. What is something you got last Valentines?

Three roses, a very gay pink teddy bear, and.. some other stuff. XD

15. Is Valentines depressing?

It was for the past.. fifteen years of my life. Haha.

17. How is your love life?

UH. That's not something I'm comf'table discussing right here, right now. :P

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?

A month and two days before Valentine's. :D

19. How many roses would you want?

Depends what the occasion is. On Valentine's... I dunno. I was happy with three. :)

20. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentine's day?

Erm. Haha.

21. Do you look forward to Valentines day?

Next year..? I guess..?

22. Who was your last Valentine from?

Whut. I don't understand the question. Is that like a card, or.. what.

23. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?

OH. Like. Who dyou expect to BE your Valentine! Wtf man.

24. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?

Someone, I s'pose.

25. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?

OH, LIKE A CARD OR SOMETHING. WTF.

26. Have you ever not received a Valentine?

Sure. XD 27.

What was the most Valentines you received in a single year?

I don't flipping know what a Valentine is.

28. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?

Is it a card, or a letter, or something?

29. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?

I think it's a card.

30. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?

Definitely a card.

31. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?

A very amazing date.

32. What was the worst?

A very disappointing date.

(coincidentally.. right after this date.. I saw someone who made my day. And we only talked for like, five minutes, wtf)

33. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?

..No? What.

Pixies in the soda. ;)

SO. This entry will be cheerful! Or.. I don't know. URGH. Damn.

(I haven't been labeling my entries recently. I have no idea what's wrong with me. I'm too distracted, I think. I can't classify them anymore. D: Waha)

First off.

I haven't done a shred of Research. AT. FUCKING. ALL. :|
Plus, I won't be here on Thursday and Friday, 'cause mom and daddy are giving me their belated birthday present: four days and nights at Singapore. :D Wahoo!

So I only have around two and a half hours left to finish everything I've got to do, since Roy and Robel apparently "can't do it." -___-

Second!

I really, really, really, REALLY should get around to telling you guys about what's going on in my life, but. I just realized. People read my blogs! And by people, I mean people from school! People that know me and will judge me. Some of these people have business with me, some do not. Some of these people I give a decent crap about, some I do not. Some of these people have the right to know what's going on in my life.. some absolutely do fucking NOT. So, yeah.

I'm being pretty damn motherfucking guarded with all my entries.

At least, until I find some very creative euphemisms to convey my messages to y'all. ;)

Thirdly.

I just noticed now that there's a new object on my dock. The "App Store" App. Wtf. Hahaha. Nice. XD

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I need to talk to you, Ickall. ): I need to tell you everything, from the very beginning. It's so insane, trying to keep everything inside. But of course I can't tell the whole truth to anyone else. :/ DAMNIT. GODDAMNIT I NEED MY BEST FRIEND. TT_TT

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I'm fucking hungry right now. Plus I don't have load. At fucking all. Wtf man? WTF. TT_TT That's just so fucking wrong.

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I've noticed. I'm swearing a lot more. Haha. I dunno. I'm pissed off, sorta.

ANYWAY.

Quartus.

I'm nearly done with of stars and angels., and I'm damn proud of it, too. Also, of Painting Julia. :D

It's so rare that someone inspires me to write a prose piece, y'know. Usually it's a poem. Sometimes a song. But when it's prose, something I am very un-confident about usually and have very little experience in, and I suddenly get a flash of inspiration for TWO pieces.. wow. Just.. wow.

I love you so much.

Cinco.

I'm so sleepy! And mosquitoes keep biting me. D:

Last Friday night.. well. :)) I already told you what Claudette told me.. and it really meant a lot to me, too. I think that's all I have to say about that, for now. Haha.

LN... wahahahaahahahaahaha.

I feel so bad for that poor kid. He looked so utterly mortified. All I wanted was the cake to be taken home, wtf. XD Jeez! Oh, man. So funny.

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Well, we were being VERY racist, weren't we? Oh, the cruelty. Hahaha. Ilooooveit. XD

"Why doesn't the iced tea have any fizz?"

"Oh my god, you can't just ask a drink why it has no fizz!"

That was totally a Mean Girls moment. GOSH. Wow. Hahaha.

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"I think the people think we're very rude

acting like this and not eating their food."

I rhymed, motherfucker. I fucking rhymed.

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I think it was the high-ness of doing that, and the pure relief of not getting caught, that made us so euphoric. Maybe we really did look and sound drunk. And to think, all we had were some pixies in the soda. XD

Ohmygod. That was so totally epic. WOW. O_O

And this is one of the most cheerful blog entries I've written so far. Whew. This is a new thing for me. Haha. o-o

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Even though the gods are crazy,

even though the stars are blind,

if you show me real love baby,

I'll show you mine.

We can make it nice or naughty,

be the devil and an angel, too,

got a heart and soul and body,

let's see what this love can do;

maybe I'm perfect for you.

Our song. :"> HAHAHAHAHAHA.

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Oh, wow. The lyrics are stuck in my head. Go, Paris Hilton.

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GAH. I think that's all I've got to say for now. I really want chocolate. And a snugglefest. Again. :>

Fup.

*sigh*

Okay! Today is Saturday. Yesterday was Friday. Do you know what happened yesterday? I swear, you will never fucking believe it. Actually, you don't want to know, and I don't want to tell you. So bugger off, bitches.

[this doesn't count, for Meliza. duh. haha]

*sigh*

I can't believe what I did. What the fuck. Seriously. I swear to god. What the fucking fuck. ARGH. That was idiotic. JEEZ. Fuck. Why did I do that? God. That was stupid. Seriously stupid. And cruel. O_O

OKAY. Enough of that. Going to pretend to be fine. As I said yesterday..

I've got no booze, no blades, no consent form.

Hahaha. So I'm gonna be okay. Yessirree. :>

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A sledgehammer is very angry at my forehead right now, it seems.

There are dully aching spots in my neck, reminding me that I didn't sleep well a while ago.

Flowers of bright pain blossom in my stomach and won't stop spreading.

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Funny thing. Whenever you're in a crowd there's always one person who you look for first. Srsly. Not even to go talk to that person, just.. I don't know. It's true, isn't it?

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YOU KNEW I LIKED HIM WTF? HOW IS THAT EVEN FUCKING POSSIBLE. NOBODY FUCKING KNOWS THAT, DUDE WTFWTFWTF.

"Since when?"

"Since all the time."

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL.

"He's a great guy."

"Yeah, I know.

......................... That was a dumb thing to say, wasn't it?"

O_O

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. IT'S NOT EVEN FUCKING POSSIBLE TO KNOW THAT. HOW COULD YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT.

.......

then again, I think it was actually pretty obvious from the start, wasn't it? Hahaha.

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I'm done freaking out. Romeo, my headache, won't let up. Goodnight, dears.

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PS: Something Claudette said to me last night. Well actually, early this morning. Past 5:30.

"He makes you laugh, doesn't he?" (smiling)

"Hm. Yeah, he does." (note: wistful tone)

"That's good. That's really good." (supportive!)

XD It's nice to know that people are so.. hm. What's a nice term? Nonjudgemental. :D

One Month.

It's been that long. Wow. I mean, just.. wow.

I'm listening to some really sentimental songs right now. It'll take too long to type in the lyrics.

... fuck it, I need this.

Just look up to the stars and believe who you are, 'cause it's quite alright. And so long, goodbye.

I've been binge-eating too. A lot. I ate three meals from McDo for brunch, finished one huge pack of Lay's and one of Ruffles, four and a half Snickers bars, and two mangoes. Yes, the stress is getting to me.

And can you believe it? My dress was loose last night. o-o

I'll make a blog about last night sometime tomorrow, or maybe.. I don't know. Haha. I don't feel like it. GAAAAAH.

One thing I'll say, though. Thank you to Kenn. He was my proxy-partner so many times last night, I forgot to keep track. Haha. I just kept using him to occupy me, and it was hilarious each time. He went along with it really well, too. Which makes him cool. :>

Damnit, I keep listening to my favorite Westlife songs, and they keep making me cry. GAH.

I'm never gonna say goodbye, 'cause I'd never wanna see you cry.

I swore to you my love would remain, and I'll swear it all over again.

I'm never gonna treat you bad, 'cause I never wanna see you sad.

I swore to share your joy and your pain, and I'll swear it all over again.

I hate how you can hate someone, and then love them, and then they hurt you once you get hooked. It's a bittersweet thing, but it's the story of my life.

Goodbye Michele, it's hard to die

when all the birds are singin' in the sky.

Now that the spring is in the air,

with the flowers everywhere,

I wish that we could both be there.

I hate being all sentimental and shit. I'm so weak. God.

"You are right for me. I can do the things you can't and you can do the things I can't. We complement each other. We make each other whole. .. You're my penguin, baby."

TT_TT

*sigh*

I'll always look back, as I walk away

this memory will last, for eternity

and all of our tears will be lost in the rain

when I find my way back to your arms again

but until that day, you know you are

the queen of my heart.

Okay, that last song got me bawling so hard. I don't think my tear ducts have a limit today. GOD.

Why do I have to be like this? I hate how you can make me so vulnerable.

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*sigh*

I seriously hate my life right now.

God.

Stop being so damn touchy. O_O

Jeez.

Okay, you know what.

Don't think that it's a given. Got it?

At least some people are still ------. So stop thinking that you don't have to anymore.

This is the mistake someone made long ago. This is the mistake that got me into resentment. Don't do this. I promise you will regret it.

I'm such a freak.

I'm so totally screwed. Yay me. Hahaha.

So! Anyway. Wow. Hm. ... Wow. Yeah. Wow. Yeah. ... WOW! ... YEAH.

*sigh*

God, I'm such an idiot.

You know what I hate the most? The fact that I can't maneuver around, because everyone else moves around too. Why can't you people just stay in one place?! >_>

Anyway.

My dearest darling Lilcah Angelique de Toro Opiña, I'm so sorry but I didn't get to write you anything. *sob* I'm such a failure. WAHA.

K has always hated E, and is now touchy about B. B now hates E, and is now touchy about K. E has always been touchy about K, and now hates B.

So many people know the riddle, but so few agree about the answer.

Whew.

I have no idea what to do anymore. I just hate this so much. I hate, hate, hate having to care about how others would feel. I can't convince myself that I don't have to give a crap. 'Cause I always will.

*sigh*

Why can't this be simple? Why does it always have to be so difficult?

Second year I was becoming unraveled. This year I'm.. tangled up.

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To you-know-who: Somehow, I think I always knew you'd never let go of "that" card. I guess I did lose all forms of respect for you along the way. You know what.. I don't trust you anymore. And I don't think I could ever believe in you again. I don't know. I'm.. disappointed in you. I thought you were better than that.

To my much-missed Ba: God, I miss you. I wish you were here. You'd make everything right again, somehow. Even if you weren't part of it at all.. it doesn't matter. You can fix me so well without even knowing it. *sigh* Please.. come back. I need you, I really do.

To V: I think I know what you meant now, when you said that. It does hurt, it hurts a fucking lot. But you lived through it.. and I will, too. I hope. It sucks when your friendship is more important than anything in the world.. but at least you've got that, right? But you know.. I am so proud of you, for doing what you did. And I hope what I'm doing right now is as right as what you did, too.

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On the not-so-serious side. My kidneys have taken after Tañah's, and have been in overdrive for the latter part of the day. My bladder can't take much more. =)))

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I need a break from life. GAH.

~out.

Kyaaa.

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1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Yeah, sure. :>

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
de Guzman. HAHAHA.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
... sure? I guess. I was sleepy. XD

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
A few minutes ago. :)) Mom~

5. What are you excited for?
I know it's insanely cliche, but.. PROM. O_O

6. What were you doing yesterday?
Went to school, talked to people.. gave a letter.. talked to some other people.. skipped cotillion practice 'cause I was talking to people.. Haha.

7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Erm. Haha. Peter?

8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Dewberry. :D

9. Have a best friend?
Meliza~ I miss you. D:

10. Are you scared to fall in love?
Right now? After everything that's happened to me? Yes, actually. A bit. (:

11. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Well, duh. Haha.

12. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Erm. I don't know. The lady guard. XD

13. What time is it right this second?
3:52 pm. :D

14. What do you want right now?
To be on the phone with a certain someone. Call back, you bitch. Hahaha. Kidding. XD

15. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Maria. :D Contaacts.

16. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Single, confused. Hahaha. Amaaaazing. I used to be taken and heartbroken. Wow.

17. When was the last time you cried?
Monday night, while writing the letter. (:

18. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
... next question. :D

19. Do you find it hard to trust others?
Depends. :D

20. How fast does your mind change?
Pretty damn quickly. XD

21. I bet you miss somebody right now.
Hell yes. :(

22. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Nahh. I'm never really okay.. and I'm never really honest. XD

23. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Because they didn't study for the damn test and they don't want to fail. D:

Hahaha.

'Cause.. they don't know what they want, but they don't want to hurt the one they're with.

24. Tell me what's on your mind?
I want more food. I want to hug *someone* right this instant. I want to sleep.

25. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?

Erm. Nothing, really.

26. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Shirt, shorts. Haha.

29. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes! :D

31. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Most of the time, actually.

32. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Erm. Haha. Can I not deal with this question right now?

36. Who do you not get along with?
Bitches. :>

38. What are you wearing right now?
Blue tank top, grey short shorts, white jacket. (:

39. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
We'd be having another of our bazillion closure talks.

40. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
GAH. I don't even remember. D:

41. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Boy: Romeo~ Girl: Juliet~

Hahaha.

42. How did you feel when you woke up?
Didn't I already answer this question..?

43. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
CALL. GODDAMNIT CALL. O_O

44. Do you crack your knuckles?
Sometimes. XD

45. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Sleeping! Yay for me. Haha.

46. What are your LEGAL initials?
FGPH? Haha. Are there illegal initials..? O_e

47. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Balinas, Rhyll Joy. :D

48. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Yesterday, making fun of someone with Chel. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

49. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
DUH. FUCK YEAH.

50. Explain your last awkward moment?
I forgot. :)) I dunno.

51. Are you afraid of the dark?
Not if I'm with someone I trust. :)

54. Have you ever slapped someone?
Kiss-slaps on Saturday night FTW. Hahaha.

55. Are you Irish?
No..?

56. Do you use chap stick?
Nope. Lip balm. :D

57. Do you have any scars?

Yes, actually. Several. Damn proud of them, too. :D

58. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Sadly, yeah. :/

59. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
Nope. I can't date Tañah! I promised someone I'd be straight. :P

62. Can you go in public looking like you do?
No, I need to put on decent clothes. =))

64. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Middle..? XD

65. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
WAKE UP, duh. =)))))

66. Do you fall for people easily?
Not really. It actually takes a very special sort of person to steal my heart. (:

67. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes. A while ago, actually. GRIZZLY~

68. Do you miss the way things used to be?
It depends in what sense of those words.

69. Song you're thinking of right now?
Zzzzzz, The Cab. :)

70. Want someone back in your life?
Yes. Several people, actually. GOD, I miss you, B. :/

72. What's the color of the shirt you are wearing?
Grey~

73. Who was the first friend that you had?
Forgot her name, wtf. XD

74. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Depends what they lied about and what their reasons were.

76. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
Neither. :D

77. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
AHAHAHAHAHA next question.

78. What do you wear when you sleep?
Camisole and pajama pants. :D If it's hot, I wear a large shirt. :D If it's cold I put on my green sweater.

80. The first person you loved is?
ERM. Haha. My parents?

82. You are locked up with someone you love, what happens?
My best friend! We'd talk about stupid stuff, then try to get out, then fail, laugh at ourselves, then be all smart and ninja and get out. :>

83. If you could wish for something, what would it be?
To.... have the power to control every single atom. :>

85. When you are alone, what do you think about?
Life in general. Hahaha.

86. How was your first kiss?

Erm. It got stolen from me from behind a school newspaper that we were reading together, in the classroom, with people everywhere. First adjective that comes to mind: UNEXPECTED. XD

87. What's your favorite music genre?
Depends on my mood. (:

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