Fup.

*sigh*

Okay! Today is Saturday. Yesterday was Friday. Do you know what happened yesterday? I swear, you will never fucking believe it. Actually, you don't want to know, and I don't want to tell you. So bugger off, bitches.

[this doesn't count, for Meliza. duh. haha]

*sigh*

I can't believe what I did. What the fuck. Seriously. I swear to god. What the fucking fuck. ARGH. That was idiotic. JEEZ. Fuck. Why did I do that? God. That was stupid. Seriously stupid. And cruel. O_O

OKAY. Enough of that. Going to pretend to be fine. As I said yesterday..

I've got no booze, no blades, no consent form.

Hahaha. So I'm gonna be okay. Yessirree. :>

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A sledgehammer is very angry at my forehead right now, it seems.

There are dully aching spots in my neck, reminding me that I didn't sleep well a while ago.

Flowers of bright pain blossom in my stomach and won't stop spreading.

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Funny thing. Whenever you're in a crowd there's always one person who you look for first. Srsly. Not even to go talk to that person, just.. I don't know. It's true, isn't it?

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YOU KNEW I LIKED HIM WTF? HOW IS THAT EVEN FUCKING POSSIBLE. NOBODY FUCKING KNOWS THAT, DUDE WTFWTFWTF.

"Since when?"

"Since all the time."

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL.

"He's a great guy."

"Yeah, I know.

......................... That was a dumb thing to say, wasn't it?"

O_O

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. IT'S NOT EVEN FUCKING POSSIBLE TO KNOW THAT. HOW COULD YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT.

.......

then again, I think it was actually pretty obvious from the start, wasn't it? Hahaha.

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I'm done freaking out. Romeo, my headache, won't let up. Goodnight, dears.

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PS: Something Claudette said to me last night. Well actually, early this morning. Past 5:30.

"He makes you laugh, doesn't he?" (smiling)

"Hm. Yeah, he does." (note: wistful tone)

"That's good. That's really good." (supportive!)

XD It's nice to know that people are so.. hm. What's a nice term? Nonjudgemental. :D