Broken

[the song's by Lifehouse. It's amazing]

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight;

maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time.

I am here still waiting, though I still have my doubts;

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out.

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing;

with a broken heart that's still beating.

In the pain, there is healing;

in your name I find meaning.

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on,

I'm barely holdin' on to you.

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head:

I tried my best to be guarded; I'm an open book instead.

I still see your reflection inside of my eyes,

that are looking for a purpose; they're still looking for life.

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing,

with a broken heart that's still beating.

In the pain (in the pain), is there healing;

in your name (in your name) I find meaning.

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you.

I'm hangin' on another day

just to see what you throw my way.

And I'm hanging on to the words you say;

you said that I will be okay.

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone;

I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home.

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing;

with a broken heart that's still beating.

In the pain(In the pain) there is healing;

in your name I find meaning.

So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),

I'm barely holdin' on to you..

--

You dedicated that song to me once, said it fit me just right, like a sock ['cause back then we thought gloves were old-fashioned and overrated] and now I'm throwing it right back atcha.

I miss you, V. More than you could imagine. I swear. Come baaaaack. Our 'kada fell apart without you. D:

Happy birthday, though, for tomorrow. Sorry, I was too excited. :P Besides. The world is a cold, lonely place without your amazing birthday bashes. Haha. You're turning eighteeeen! You're legal!! O: Waha. Have fun doing all the crap legals do, hon. Sneak us some fun while you're at it, too. Hahaha.

--

Of course I miss Ba as well. Damn, I wish you were here, too. You'd make everything so much better, I swear. It'd be easier. I think. Haha.

--

Okay, I don't want to ruin the good mood of this post, and I don't want to start saying crap, but it really needs to be said, y'know?

Go right a-fucking-head.

I'm not even obliged

to give a flying fuck, you know that?

And I don't mean to wound, but at least

back then I knew exactly where I stood,

exactly what was all messed up and

exactly what had to be done to make it right.

And honestly, I'd rather know that

something was purely my fault

instead of

not knowing anything at all.

Ignorance is bliss, they say, but

I'm fucking used to the pain.

So don't fuck with me, bitch.

I swear, I will make you regret it.

If you want to play it that way,

fine.

You can go die in a hole

for all I care.

I'll even help you dig it.

It's all gone, everything.

And you know what?

It's all your fault.

You know the sad thing? That isn't even about who you'd think it's about.

--

BACK TO V.

Haha.

I'll see you soon, I hope. :D Come back during my sembreak in November, or something? XD

--bye.