Loneliness knows me by name.

I've been reading Blood and Gold for the past few days. I love Anne Rice; the way she makes the words all flow together is so beautiful. (:

Maybe I'm like Marius, in a sense. Maybe I love too easily, and I make people love me. Maybe it's a terrible sin for me to do this, because in the end I know I'm only going to be lonely again. Maybe the only ones who love me, I push away.

I've done this before, you know.

One person, I never let him know what I felt. I don't even know where he is right now.

Another one, I would have moved the world for, would have destroyed galaxies just to be with, would have gone up against everything I ever knew and cared for, but I let my stupid pride and selfishness get in the way.

A third? I was too scared to ever even think of it, too wary of everything I was capable of.

One more? I never even let myself give a second thought to what would happen next.

*sigh*

Why do I torment myself like this? Why do I hurt other people? Argh. This is so unfair.

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This was supposed to be a short, chirpy blog entry, but.. I dunno what happened. Maybe the title took hold of me, and.. yeah. (>_<)

Anyway! Because I was being random and crazy today, I made a new Skype. My fourth one yet. O_O